ere there is great love there are always miraclesWh

Y Tuesday, January 22, 2008Y

1/22/2008 05:18:00 PM

everyting gone..gone..gone..all thanks to my stupidity..sighhh..this is the 1st time tt we're nt in contact for more den 24 hrs..why am i so retarded?it's all my fault..all my farking fault..i hate myself..why must i lie to him over someting tt i nv do wrong..why shd i lie?wad the hell was i tinking??it was nothing wrong miting a fren whom i hv nt seen for a long time for coffee when i'm nearby..why must i lie to him..there must be someting wrong wif mi..i reali reali hope tt there'll be another chance..but haiis..i;ve hurt him deep..nth can be salvage already..

dear..i'm veri sorry for hurting u..i dun hv the guts to call or msg u at all..mondae will be our 9 mths anni..after doing wad i am suppose to do, i'll disappear frm ur life forever..thanks for everyting tt u've done for mi..thanks for treating mi so good thou i suck..i'm truely sorry..

Y Thursday, January 10, 2008Y

1/10/2008 01:31:00 AM

wenta jake's final round singing competition..din expect him to sing so well..lols..but he choose a wrong song for the fast song part..
and my bf told me tt he'd be bowling wif his frens..but when i call him he sae he's at BLUE..when i asked him why didn't he tell me..his reply was why should he tell me?as hid gf, dun i have to noe before hand where are u going?
when i ask him to put himself into my shoes, if i were to tell him i'm going shopping or dinner with my frens..but later when he calls,and i were to tell him i'm zouk , how would he react?his ans was "wo she me dou bu hui zuo"..
fine since this is the way..i noe le..everyting i do for him is a "li suo dang ran" ting..taking everyting for granted..
when he 1st told him he wanted to study, straight away i went online n look for informations for him..but he din even bother to look at it..
this few daes reali had a hard time tinking bout our relationship..mayb it's becuz i love him more den he loves me..tt's why tings are lik tt..or mayb he's beginning to get tired of mi..
i shall continue observing..see hw tings go during this weekend..

Y Wednesday, January 09, 2008Y

1/09/2008 12:25:00 AM

quarrelled with him last nite, tot everyting will be fine by todae..but doesnt seem so..became worse..he was supposed to mit his frenz at blue tonite..but he actually scolded me "kan bu" just bcuz i ask him whether i can go blue wif az n june..YES, i ASKED..not TELL him that i'm going dwn..and i was going to tag to him when i'm there..i'm just gona be wif my frens..n let him be with his..as i'll be leaving early..i reali duno wad's on his mind..there wasnt a need for scolding me that seriously..sighh..i'm starting to tink of all past encounters..reali felt tt he's not understanding at all..n definately not a listener to my woes..aft so long le..arghhh..i'm reali heartbroken this time..totally...CHENG XIM!!!

Y Monday, January 07, 2008Y

1/07/2008 10:50:00 PM

i've decided to start blogging for this brand new yr again..going for my new job tml..excited..yet scary..l0ls..made my prei0us id0it angry just nw..sigh..n0e he sae all th0se is wei le w0 ha0..but cant he just be bit m0re understanding?he nv listens to me..i dun tink i've ever told him reali bout my own probs also..guess it's nt a healty ting for a relationship to be lidat bahhs..but no choice..been lik this for 8 mths..wad can i do..

Y Tuesday, June 05, 2007Y

6/05/2007 11:09:00 AM

blahhs..s0 l0ng nv 0nline lia0ox..waiting t0 g0 f0r 2nd rnd interview at hsbc ltr..0mg..my dear l0ve the way i dressed up yesterdae..hahaas..ya n i tink it's damn nice als0..l0ls..shall c h0w i l0ok lik last nite..nice rite..=X purple contacts..haas..

whatever..my butt getting pain lerr l0rrs..sit in frnt 0f c0m s0 l0ng lia0ox..i tink i g0 get abit 0f sleep first..if nt ltr g0 interview l0ok lik ghost lidat..haas..nitenite

arGH!!ppl living upstairs duno doing what shit..keep knockin the floor..pek chek!!

Y Wednesday, May 30, 2007Y

5/30/2007 10:26:00 AM

kinda b0red..s0 decided t0 bl0gg..if i were t0 slp nw i supp0se by night time i wud be veri awake..s0 i shall n0t slp..trying t0 find s0me stuffs t0 d0 0nline..but nth seem t0 sppeal me except slping..hahaha..let's l0ok at mi without makeup..hah..green eyes..nice rite..=P

Y Saturday, May 26, 2007Y

5/26/2007 08:33:00 AM

1mth nv p0st lerrs..anyway finally g0t internet at h0me..s0 shuangs..but als0 nth t0 d0 0nline larrs..l0ls..jux settled 0ur quarrel..been callin him since 4+ until i call his hse den he answerd n we talk tings 0ut..i kn0w it's my fault f0r nt trusting y0u n f0r sh0uting at y0u..i'll try t0 c0ntr0l my temper nxt time kaes..i'm sry..i reali l0ve y0u..h0pe time can pr0ve everyting..muackks